The Beginning Of The End.

Well,I'm sitting here with a delicious cup of hot chocolate.Mike's aunt told me how 2 make something  so good even better.Add creamer 2 it. I prefer the Non dairy.
I have some time, so I thought I'd share what happened 2 me in 1981:
It was July of that year.And,my family decided 2 take a trip 2 GA.2 visit my folks.We live in IL.And, what I'm about 2 say next, I hope no one will take the wrong way.Because I def don't blame anyone 4 my Bi-Polar Disorder.No more than I would blame anyone 4 my Diabetes. ( But myself)Bi-Polar is a disease of the brain, a chemical imbalance. U could have the best upbringing, and still get it. It is no respecter of persons.
Anyway, we left about 10 PM,and drove straight through. I'm one who only sleeps well in my own home. So, I got no sleep on the trip there.And,  at my folks hardly any.We only stayed a couple a days, as we had plans 2 go 2 " The Jesus Jam."It was a Fest a bit like the "Cornerstone Fest "( Google), only on a smaller scale.
Leaving my folks was a very emotional experience, and we drove straight through home.My husband now knows that that wasn't a very sensitive thing 2 do. He has learned.He has grown.
Anyway,at the Jesus Jam, I began 2 be very emotional and didn't sleep much there.Our whole fellowship group went,and there was lots 2 do there. Many good Jesus bands like Barnabus, Servant, Shelter, Randall Waller band 2 name a few.It should've been a good time 4 me.But, all I could do was cry, and I talked one sister's ear off.
When we got home, I was OK 4 awhile.Then, I got bizarre at a Bible Study.This was the first time the Bi-Polar manifested with dilusional behavior.I imagined that my best friend was " Shooting daggers" at me through her eyes
Everyone thought I had demons or something.U who are diagnosed with Bi-Polar in this day and age are so fortunate, because of all the knowledge about it, and so many helpful meds.
Well, I am going 2 post this now. Going 2 fellowship.I'll write more later or tomorrow.

















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